College

Taken 5/9/2009 by KTB (Citadel Graduation)

Somewhere between the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, the nasty cafeteria food, and the calls to each other complaining about roommates and lovers… Somewhere between the calls to old friends, the ‘I miss you’s’ and the ‘I love you’s’, and the ‘what are we doing tonight?s’… Somewhere between all of the changing and the growing, and the classes, the skipping classes, studying for tests, pretending to study for tests, and the downright not studying for tests… I forgot.

I forgot what it’s all about. I forgot what it means to cry. I forgot that pretending to be happy, doesn’t make you happy. Pretending to be smart, doesn’t make you smart. I forgot that you can’t just forget the past in fear of the future. I forgot that you can’t control falling in love, and that you can’t make yourself fall in love. I learned that I can fall in love. I learned that it is OK to mess up. It’s OK to ask for help, and it’s OK to feel like crap.

I learned that sometimes the things you want the most you can’t have. I learned that the greatest thing isn’t the parties or the drinking or the hookups. It’s the friendships which mean taking chances. I have learned that sometimes the things we want to forget the most are the things that we need most to talk about. I learned that once you get to college things don’t automatically get better. It’s what you make of it. I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing, and that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better. Basically, I learned that my friends, both old and new, are the most important people in the world to me, and without them I wouldn’t be who I am today.